hye everyone. so i didnt update for like what, few weeks? and my friends complain more than my mother does. hey just remember, i love u all, even if i dont say it in the web. hehe

now lets get staright to the point, i'm in cyberjaya and im having fun more than i should have. the best part is, i havent really paid the fees. and that includes the registration fees! i stopped cooking for like few weeks, and i bought foods eversince. and have i told u that i live in a so-called townhouse? sounds rich-richy? it does to me..

what else? yepp i dont have my own fon rite now. i have soked my fon a few month ago, then a fren has made my brother's fon broken into pieces *sad* and now i am using his fon. and his name is what? apai? what a coincidence! i had an 'apai' who has had a real bad history with my last fon, and hopefully this is not the same kinda 'apai'.

ok enuf with the story. im off to class. later ya! taaa

kebosanan yg teramat. kemalasan yg teramat. kebencian yg tak teramat mane. ketaksukaan yg bebiase je.

ok sbnrnye tatau nk tulis ape, sbb dh tak pandai mengarang. mmg tak penah pandai kot. mungkin dh tade idea nak menulis sbb byk buat essays lately, so idea abis kat situ je.

skrg dh kompem i'm gonna stay here. hopefully i made the right decision for myself. esok start hari sukan kat sini. mcm comel sbb ade rumah sukan. kaler merah gitu my group. heheh bersungguh2 gi cari tshirt merah smlm. tak sabar nak sukan. pastuh kene jadi ketua cheer. huhu mmg comel abis la tuh. rase cam budak kecik gile. tp takpe la asalkan comel dan suke.

skrg nih rase cam gile2 nak beli mp3 player. pening la.. nak beli ke tak nih..? tepon pon tade ade hati nak beli mp3 player kan. pape la ade duit lebih sket mcm perlu gi beli cepat2 nih, kang abis duit lak. tepon biar mak beli :D set.

ok dh nak exam japgi. exam lagi. biase la idop kat msia mmg kalo tade exam bukan msia la namenye kot. till then salam.. sori kat kengkawan sbb blog nih dh mcm tade maintainence :D nanti2 la ade mase k

I'm stuffed. i mean my mind. Too full yet too empty.

I've this final exam tmrw morning. Just finished with the notes that has to be submitted tmrw.I havent studied anything yet. And did i say my mind if full?

Anyhow, i have decided to stay here instead of going back to Adelaide. yes I LOVE MALAYSIA. even if it costs me my whole life to pay back the prev loans, even if it costs me even more to pay for this new thingy, and even if it costs my parents a piece shit of land to pay for my fees, I WOULD RATHER STAY. And i chose to stay. So stay i am for the rest of my life.

There's this great man said to me, "To come this far in my life, I've been through lotsa hard times. Everyone have. It's just a matter of time. So put it this way: you're so lucky that God has chosen you to go through the hardest time this early in your life. So then you can learn the best out of it. And for the rest of your life from now on, when u face a hard time again, u'll remember - u've been through harder than this".

Wish me best for tmrw.

:D mcm lame jugak tak tulis something here. been very busy plus holiday and stuff. holiday, balik umah, had a lot of fun. had an incident with mom's car, but no big deal. a small cousin has gone to The Creator after an accident, innalillah.. and me, i've a big thing to be decided in few days time. 

it's just so hard when u have to make one of the biggest decisions for YOUR LIFE, and it's even harder when the decision will affect ur beloved ones. and people asking "have u made the decision?", even make the feeling worse. and i say "stop asking me the question and go and read about how to be sensitive to human's feeling".

now im avoiding the crowds, scared of being asked the same lame question again. and surprise, God knew this wud happen so thats why He made my fon soaked in water just the day before i came here. it sucks, but its a bless.

so now i'm just gonna follow the flow and see where fate's gonna take me to.

assalamualaikum.. huhu lame btol tak update. lebih sebulan gak la, rekod! nway, to my frens, im doing fine here with new life and stuff. im just better than ever. been busy with lotsa new things, and dealing with old stuff is time and energy-consuming as well. anyhow, everything is running as it should be, exactly as it was arranged to be by the Almighty.

with this new life in Msia, i hope that i can do my best. i've ever been on tops that once i fell, it's so hard that it hurt so much. i've ever been on air that once the balloon poped, it kicked me so hard that i almost died.

settled with those falling-down and popping-balloon, i entered this new yet kinda same life. except that its not as boring as it used to be and the fact that its what i've always wanted. and take a note; the fact that this is what i've always wanted counts so much that me and my family are sacrificing so much for this.

the only thing i'm afraid right now is the balloon pops again. and i fall again. even the thought of it scares me badly. i hate being on top. no. the truth is, i like it. it's so comfort being on top and being asked questions like u're the best student. when u're so comfy in ur seat and forget to look down, the next thing u know the ballon u were in almost pops. and u cud then only pray that God wud spare u another life of goodness.

i know i'm mumbling out of nothing but trust me, that was the summary of my life in last 2-month - the life when i was hardest hit. and pray, that this new miracle wont ask for repayment like it did the last time.